The scan went well. After warning the sonographer about my history – and my week! – she whipped the screen away from me before inserting the dildo-cam and asked me to give her time to look first. But almost straight away she turned it back and showed me a much larger looking embryo than last week with a “perfect” heartbeat. It’s measuring 8 weeks exactly so it’s had a bit of a growth spurt and is 2 days ahead. It even wiggled its bottom during the scan – the sonographer videoed it for us!
They couldn’t locate the cause of the bleeding. They suggested that it could have been a result of me pushing the pessaries in way too far. Apparently that can cause the cervix to bleed, in addition to being on Clexane & Aspirin which hadn’t occurred to me as a possible cause.
Anyone that reads my blog regularly will know that I err on the side of pessimism and on the rare occasions I have embraced the positive it’s blown up spectacularly in my face, so for now I can’t yet allow myself to become anything other than neutral about this. I am so relieved that my scan was positive but unless I can be attached to the dildo-cam for the next seven months I cannot be sure that it’s still fine now. This is because with my first pregnancy I had a great scan at 8 weeks 2 days and the embryo died the next day. So I still go to the toilet with fear and trepidation, I am still worried about every twinge and I still fear a disaster around the corner. But I am hopeful that these feelings might begin to subside one day, hopefully if this pregnancy progresses successfully.
Thanks for the positive comments and thoughts. I’ll take all the positivity I can get right now!